Friday, May 22, 2009

Let me tell you what have been going on around me.

The three sides of my life just start to crumble.

I’ll list them down from the minimum problem it gave me to the maximum.

First problem, love side.

Confused, is my state right now. Yeah, I admit I like who and I don’t know who the hell have been the stupid backstabber who told the fucking whole school the real identity of who with his first nickname. Another thing is that the whole school seems to know that I like him. And the reason that I called him with his first nick name. Once I sat around with my friends while IRK and Fiqah demanded to know who is who. I wasn’t going to tell her when Jeerah said that she already knew who is who. I asked her who told her but she said she forgot then Fiqah asked, why I called him with his first nick name. again, Jeerah answered her.

And I was like. How the hell did she know? I didn’t remember telling her about him. Then lately I sat around my friends, chatting and suddenly one of them went, eh I just knew that you like ‘who’. She was saying his real name there. I was shocked as hell. Does the fucking whole school knew? I didn’t recall writing on a piece of paper saying that I like him and I call him with his first nickname with the reason why I called him with that name and stuck it on every notice board there is in the school.

SO WHAT THE HELL?

Second confusion. I know I like who but I kinda falling for my stalker. Who is my stalker? Let’s just stick to calling him my stalker.

Well, since he is my stalker then he stalked me. not that he admit. Just that he keep staring at me with meaningful eyes. I caught him loads of times already but didn’t say it out cause I thought it was just my feeling. Then one day, it wasn’t my feeling that he is actually watching me. and I have a witness who told me the same thing.

I was very rajin to online lately then we chatted and we got close lately. We’ve been talking to each other in school. Not that we never talk to each other. He told me something about me that I didn’t realize myself. Look, how observant he is! He is a very nice person, quite charming, pampering me. I mean, it’s hard for anyone not to fall for him with such attitude and face. I totally forgotten about who when he is around me, I feel like I want him to be my stalker forever and ever…

A5th posted at 11:47 PM