i miss him a lot. i speak to him during recall. when i was crying. and he said inda apa tuu its okay. but i feel weird. it was like common words he said to everyone. some where in the corner of my heart saying that he is not the one. i feel like going to gay two since i talked to him earlier on and teased me. i feel like i was looking for that one. that kind of guy. who teased me. i feel a stab of realization but only for seconds. what was that? was mandii just another crush when im so loving him? am i mistaken? but i AM loving him. but why am i looking for gay two? am i confused? headache eeeh...i shouldn't have falling into any of the both.



after he left, hurin hugged me and said sorry for all her mistakes. 'mistakes'.



i was looking at his back and i burst out into another round of crying since loving him is the worst mistake i've ever done. god, how i wish this never happen but i love him sooo muuuccchhh...