Friday, February 27, 2009
i had a not so good feeling yesterday when i woke up. i don't want to go to school but i still went. since the next day is friday and i had to pass up mood board to fatin so i bear with it. thank god i went to school but the day really turns out to be bad.
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Falling apart.
Yes I am. Couldn’t stand it anymore. You really are going to stay away from me. just as I hoped so that I could forget you. But why so sudden? All I wanted is not to be close to you anymore but now, you are so faraway where I couldn’t reach you.
You made me totally forgotten about him. But who is going to make me forget you? You walked away innocently leaving me in misery. I would have accepted if you have someone else, I would not be falling apart like this. But this, is just not what I expected. I just needed some time. Some time will do but you didn’t give me.
I couldn’t even have the heart to delete your pictures with me, how will I have the heart to forget all the memories that only few months created for us?
If just I could talk to you…if I could just confront you…If I could just not fallen for you…if I could just stay away from you…
Realizing, this is actually my fault. My fault I didn’t keep myself from you. My fault that I didn’t close my heart to him and give spaces for you till you occupied all the spaces there is. My fault that I fall for you. My fault that I cried for you. My fault for everything that happened.
Riin said, fate will bring us back together if we’re meant to be. But are we meant to be? Will fate be that generous? When time was just so little and in moments of time, I’ll be assured you are married. I really have to start forgetting you from now.
Life is such a drama…where I am the victim…who will never find the real love of my life…
A5th posted at 5:26 PM
